| A heart. |
[03 Jan 2009|03:39am] |
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Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas |
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A complex thing, one could classify it simply as an organ pumping our life. Others could say it is simply something to follow towards happiness. The question is though, what does one do with a heart that refuses love, sympathy, attention or companionship? How does one "fix" a heart? Wait diligently for persons willing to aid in this endeavor? Or simply shield this heart behind name brands and bright clothes, playing the part of the social chameleon, blending with the crowds. Belonging to all; Conforming to none.
-Kir Dzl
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| So yeah. |
[18 Dec 2008|11:24am] |
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Third Eye Blind- Semi-charmed Life |
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I aced the college placement test, (required was 83, I did 107, 101 and 103 respectably).
Come January 6th (after registering for my classes), I'm back in college.
*waves little Victolee flags*
Booyah.
-Kir Dzl
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| I miss. |
[02 Oct 2008|01:13am] |
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Modjo- Lady(Hear Me Tonight) |
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I miss being in Germany watching MTV. de and having Stardust, PPK, Zombie Nation, DJ Icey, Modjo and other amazing techno play all night long.
What I miss more is the crazy nights going to Denny's listening to said music discussing the meaning of life and more.
I think I was using the wrong medium with which to express myself. Art and Culinary didn't do it for me. I feel my passion lies most with Music. I feel there is no deeper outlet then music; One song can trigger a cornucopia of emotions.
-Kir Dzl
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| I really wished things turned out better. |
[23 Sep 2008|04:37pm] |
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RJD2- Here's What's Left |
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The Death of anyone is a big deal; From a tyrant falling from his seat of power, to the poor soul whose time came sooner then expected.
Moving on is impossible, from that day forth branded onto your arm like a rank; The more death you've witnessed, the more experienced you become nowadays. My body aches from the memories of the lost ones.
Rest in Peace Nanny.
-Kir Dzl
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| I wish... |
[23 Sep 2008|04:25pm] |
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RJD2- "Here's What's Left" |
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I could go on an endless journey, my friends by my side, and just walk. No destination, just walking. I'd circumnavigate the world, why you ask?; Just because. Life is too short, you won't even see half of the things in life, and even less of the better things. I don't want to stop somewhere to live, I want to keep on moving, a Freeter; One who's good at everything, but does not stop to settle. I'll go city to city, see the world how it truly is.
-Kir Dzl
RJD2- "Here's What's Left". Listen, you'll understand.
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| I wish... |
[23 Sep 2008|04:25pm] |
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RJD2- "Here's What's Left" |
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I could go on an endless journey, my friends by my side, and just walk. No destination, just walking. I'd circumnavigate the world, why you ask?; Just because. Life is too short, you won't even see half of the things in life, and even less of the better things. I don't want to stop somewhere to live, I want to keep on moving, a Freeter; One who's good at everything, but does not stop to settle. I'll go city to city, see the world how it truly is.
-Kir Dzl
RJD2- "Here's What's Left". Listen, you'll understand.
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| I want something more. |
[14 Sep 2008|01:07am] |
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Louis XIV- Finding Out True Love Is Blind. <-- Good stuff. |
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In all honesty, I'm unsure of what I'm looking for. An actual connection would be nice. I'm the guy that goes out and is overly gregarious in hopes of attracting decent company. I live my life day by day, repeating the same monotonous routine, knowing change is naught but around the bend, hoping that moment isn't ten years down the line. I've made my share of mistakes; I've experienced more in the past 6 years, than I think most people experience by the time they reach 30. I've seen hardships, loss of friends and family; I've watched mistakes consume those without aid.
But in the end, I still stand here. My name will echo throughout the world; I'm going to be famous, you wait and see.
-Kir Dzl
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| BEHOLD! |
[07 Sep 2008|12:06am] |
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Pendelum Discography. <-- Good shit look them up. |
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I feel cuddly.
-Kir Dzl
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| I'm gonna kill myself. |
[30 Aug 2008|01:02am] |
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Head throbbing. |
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So yeah. I got jumped by 6 guys. Awesome birthday.
-Kir Dzl
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| Facebook Entertainment. |
[09 Aug 2008|12:13am] |
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Pink Triangle- Weezer. |
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Your friends have voted on your strengths and weaknesses:
STRENGTHS:
most helpful
most artistic
most fashionable
WEAKNESSES:
person with the best smile
most likely to succeed
-Kir Dzl
P.S.- I'm going to start a club and call it the SSC, "Screw Social Conformity" Club.
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| </3 |
[04 Aug 2008|09:25am] |
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Viva La Viva- Coldplay |
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Every year, I encounter two painful days; June 13th, and August 5th.
This year, August 5th will be the most painful it has ever been.
I've finally realized, that Brian Keith Bridgers Junior, would have been 17.
He was twelve the last time I saw him.
-Kir Dzl
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| Status Update. |
[25 Jul 2008|07:47am] |
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3Oh!3- PunkBitch |
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Ahhh, the life of sobriety might be boring compared to being a stoner, but at least my Social Circles have expanded into safer grounds. :P
( Read more... )
-Kir Dzl
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| Neo Geo Battle Coliseum. |
[14 Jul 2008|10:31pm] |
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Neo Geo Battle Coliseum/WoW |
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I've had the game all of five minutes and have decided Mizuchi is the cheapest piece of s*** boss out there. Hell Diablo from Diablo 2 wasn't even this cheap. I've seen more lazers in 15 seconds from this guy then all the space fights from the Star War series put together.
-Kir Dzl
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| Loyalties do run skin-deep. |
[30 Jun 2008|11:11pm] |
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The Living End- Who's Gonna Save Us |
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I chose wrong. Somewhere after high school I f***** up badly enough to where I chose to hang out with the wrong friends. And now because I'm choosing to start getting my stuff in order I'm being disowned by these current "friends". /Pif. I know their loyalties now. Let the weeding process begin.
-Kir Dzl
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| Writer's Block: Fixing the past, Or: The Only True Question |
[02 Jun 2008|08:47pm] |
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 Ninja STRI-KE!!1shiftoneone |
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Sounds of kids crying on XBL |
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Trying harder in the relationship I miss the most.
And *心転身の術 Shintenshin no Jutsu!* *While in control of you pirate fans all* Yes ninjas might have their gliders to our boats, katana to our cutlass, ninpo to our way of the sea and rum to our sake...but where they one-up us is...hygiene. We pirate are a misfortunately blessed leperous dying species... Ninjas are well-groomed handsome devils. *cheers on Ninjas*
-Kir Dzl, Halo 3 XBL/IRL Shinobi.
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| Ah memories. |
[21 May 2008|11:56am] |
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Sci-fi Cinema- Dog Soldiers |
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Spoilers.
( Read more... )
-Kir
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| 20 |
[20 May 2008|06:16am] |
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Thought- Can I really make that profound an impact? |
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I'm not saying that I am feeling that right now. What I can say is that I feel...awkward. Like, I graduated '06. It's '08 already and I'm turning TWENTY come end of August. I feel like I'm stuck in a weird teenager stage considering I finished school at 17. Two years later and it's still difficult. I'm alive by all means and doing well. I wish I was the way I am now back in school, but I doubt McFatter would be able to put up with that much more chaos from my aftermath.
Since 2006, I've experienced more in two years, then I've ever thought possible. I've been through my relationships. I've had my likes, my loves and my lusts. I've lost friends, family, and more. I've had many jobs. Seen places. Lived in unsavory neighborhoods or residential areas (Covenant House, taught me people will still find ways to use you). I've seen people come and go. I've Partied. As in "P-A-R-T-Why? BECAUSE I GOTTA!". I've become more street smart. I've learned a lot on the subject of how others look at their/others' lives. I've been around the drug scene. Do you know how awkward it is not having seen someone from my high school for two years, then randomly getting a text message asking "u got ne stuf?". All and all I think I've seen a lot of negative things around. Why? Mainly because I've asked for it. Because I was so infatuated and curious with how the other side lives, I forgot to learn to separate the difference between my world, and the next. I've had my near-death experiences. On more than one occasion I might add. I don't mean to sound like a braggart, but I've been through hell and back and all before the age of 20.
And in all honestly when it comes to the negatives things I've dabbled in and seen I know this one truth:
Better now, than never.
I would have rather experience every last one of these "Life Lessons" now when I'm young and capable of making choices, then older, when it's that much harder to handle these "Lessons" because you've grown so accustomed to them.
And you know what else is interesting. I'm single. Now I can't play the modesty card, or say I'm just "spitting my game", but I'll tell you one thing, the day I find someone who can so effortlessly write a deep open conversation like this, is the day I'm kidnapping them and forcing them into marriage.
Kidding, kidding, but I figured I'd sneak in a cheap laugh or too. Serious business time is....................................................now.
I'm going to post a two videos, they connect, two separate parts (yes you have to watch it, visual effects are what make it more impacting), and I would like you to watch them. And truthfully listen to what message is being presented to you. Thoughts or opinions just fire me back a message:
Part 1
Part 2
The time for change is now. Now is as good a time as ever to turn my life around. The drugs, the bad decisions; Done. It's time to let the good times roll. Besides, a little less stress wouldn't kill me.
-Kir, Tigger, Trigga but still Chris.
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| "Most likely to succeed" 0/5. |
[07 Mar 2008|03:42pm] |
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Paramore- Misery Business |
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Hmmm. Above is the statistics I believe for the voters thoughts on my probability to succeed in life in general I'll assume.
Dead. Wrong.
Moe's Southwest Grill= Mine.
Me= General Manager.
Almost have my car fixed (broken clutch).
Rent is no problem as always.
Rather busy unfortunately between training management and working my shifts. In short, swing by?
Located at SW 136th and W.Sunrise. I'm there all the time. If not I get called in.
Work beckons, update later.
-Kir
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